Gah

So yet again I'm facing another sleepless night before one of my ritual 5am starts and just have so much stuff on my mind that will not ease up!
So with the idea given to me by my inspirational/slightly delusional co-worker(sounds so lame) I have created this for "another outlet".

This afternoon I watched "Final Destination 5" which I hadn't previously seen, but having seen the movies in the franchise beforehand I knew I'd enjoy it. Although I know exactly what to expect with all the deaths and everything, that still didnt prepare me. From the laser eye accident, to the gymnast who becomes in the movie urm....too flexible they definitely shocked me I must say.

In an interview with the producer in the special features, the producer says "We were asked how we can justify making another movie after we called the last one "THE Final Destination". And then we decided that we would make the 5th movie a PRE-quel to the 1st".....JESSE'S MIND BLOWN!!!! HOW, can after 4 movies they go back and make another before the first?!?! This leaves me thinking so irrationally as I always am; IF the 5th movie is on the timeline for before the first movie, but it's called number #5 (so logically people will watch it 1-5) the final destination movies will never end. Cause I'm that type of person that needs to finish something once they start it, so if I started number 1, then got to number 5(which is the prequel)and that takes me to the beginning of number 1, does that mean I'd have to watch the WHOLE series over again to understand it? And if I was to watch the WHOLE series, I'd continue to repeat this cycle; correct? I know I see my logic.

But with having finished watching that movie several hours ago, that amazingly is not the thing that is still on my mind. Nor is the whole death thing, like how they bring the whole "Death doesn't like to be cheated" thing in full view. The thing that gives me the heebie-jeebies is the choices that everyone makes. And how easily things can go wrong.
I work full time, but not ONE day is the same from the last. So that leaves me to wonder; why? What makes me sleep-in some days? What makes me prioritize things differently each day? Is THAT, all the small things in life, all part of Death's plan, to finally have us in his clutch? And if so, why not now? And if not now, what matters what we do now? I'm a big believer in drawing the big obvious line in sand and making people make a choice. Either you're this or you're that. So; if it's his plan to let us live, why get us to make the moves that will seal our fate? I know I'm always over the top and think things a lot, but when life gives you lemons, why do you have to do anything? Can't you just admire them,
speculate them and just hope that they'll do something to you, they'll inspire you.

I'm still confused as to how this whole "blog" thing is, and if I should continue to ramble on this one thing or make another..... :/

To finish this one though, I shall include a quote from a very good book by a very talented aspiring author;
"Choices are inevitable and no matter what we choose-even if it feels right at the time-we will always wonder what might have been."